38 Days

There's 38 days to go for me, and I really wish time
would fly by just a little bit quicker.

All this time, since I hit 20, I've found that time flies
by way faster than I need it to - hence, all these
unwanted fine lines, open pores, bad body aches,etc.

But no, once it comes down to waiting for months/days,
time just decides to be a bitch to me....

I'm waiting for 2 things now.

1) My boyfriend to get back
2) Somethinggggggggggggggggggg
(Which happens in 38 days)

And the 1st is already taking ages. He's only been gone
for 16 days but it feels like 2 months!? OMG I JUST
WANT HIM TO COME BACK SO THE 2ND
THING WILL HAPPEN FASTER!!!!!!!!!!!

Not sex.

I know you're thinking that, asshole.

But I don't have to wait 38 days for sex, since
Ben is getting back in 12 days suckers. I suppose
that was too much information...........

ANYWAY MY THEORY IS: After Ben gets back,
everything's going to go in fast forward.

Graduation, saying goodbye to my company, cutting
my hair... AND SOMETHING.

BEN CAN YOU JUST GET THE FUCK BACK!?

I know I'm only using him as a tool to get time to
pass faster (which I suppose works because we've already
hit one year and I don't even know that passed so fast!?)
but please understand I cannot wait any longer.

This post makes no sense except to those dearest to me.

I apologize for this shitfucked post.